hair clips and RAWRRRRRRRR

I bought some new things yesterday... a bag of cute goodies.. for £6, clips, earings, flowers, bows.. ahwwwww :) i'm trying to post a pic but my blackberry is being weird!! ...... FINALLY :):):)

errrrrrrr im feeling sort of fuzzy/happy/weird...... people in my class are horrific I'm starting to despise them; they are full of opinions one particular girl was really horrible to me and made me want to punch her or cry LOL im not gona say what she said cus its IRRELIVENT!! and im soo over it :P then .. THENNN on the way home she was clearly upset about her ex who dumped her and is with another girl and she was almost in tears.. so i offered my advice and listened.. but when i offered it she a) either didnt listen b) said what u on about :S cus she didnt like what i said which was THE TRUTH and c) talked OVER ME.. grrrrrrrr im not gona bother with HER AGAIN... anyway so we were in psychology today and the lecturer whose normally impartial said 'I DONT CARE IF YOUR A CHRISTIAN ITS A FACT EVERY MAN HAS THE POTENTIAL TO CHEAT DOWN TO ANIMAL INSTINCTS' and as you can imagine this caused quite a stir in the class..

... but I used to say the same thing.. ive cheated on people before and theyve cheated on me.. but normally when Ive cheated Ive had specific reasons.. never because of lack of self control Ive actually known and chosen to do it .. im not makin excuses.. but anyway I was talking to my friend who I bumped into shopping earlier and we chatted for bloody ages.. hes not religious but hes spiritual (not saying what he practises lol this isnt about judging hes spent his life in celibacy......... he chooses to.. i admire this guy he has more self control than anyone ive ever met!) and we got onto this GOD KNOWS HOW. something about animals i think lol... but he agreed and I agreed.. and its a sad fact but even he said that men are driven by their genitals..... men always say.. that sex is seperated from emotion.. well it is for them.. and sometimes it is for women 2.. but mostly its not. so therefore if sex is seperated from emotion its difficult for women to understand that.. a girl in my class slapped her bf for going PHWOAR about a celeb.. but all blokes do it i think? LOL my bf does it HAHA! but if u think about it its a person that they ultimately want to 'poke' lmao...... (EWWWWWW) so ultimately being the wife for example.. your the emotional factor but some girl could come a long and throw themselves at her and my friend said males and a species find it extremely hard because they think of it as passing up the opportunity.. anyway he said obviously not all men cheat obviously there are exceptions and some men just never get 'the opportunity'... PLUS that means men are the weaker sex cus they have it programmed in them LOL joking :P

so in a way i think its worse if women cheat.. because being a woman I know we aren't built the way men are? and why are they built like that? maybe because theyre not meant to be monogamous who knows? who bloody knows? we can see a man and think WOW OMG i want that .. but we literally mean want it as a whole not want to .. u know ahem. lol .. so women cheat for emotional factor i think or theyre looking for the Bigger better deal BBD a man who will protect u more.. etc etc.. so in a way i think thats worse... cus men say 'SHE WAS JUST A SH*AG, A BIT ON THE SIDE.. ITS YOU I LOVE' etc etc...

i think people who think someone would never in a billion years cheat is naive... and HEY if love is really UNCONDITIONAL i guess youd forgive your partner wouldnt you.......... to be honest with you.. i think id forgive someone if they cheated on me.. depending on the circumstances obviously.. if it was an affair hell no.. you can think im a mug for saying this but i think it takes a stronger person to stay after knowing that all the trust has been broken .. its easier to walk away? Cheryl and posh aint stooopid:p mind u.. im picturing it now and i think it would go MENTAL on the person lmfao so i cant really say what id do until im in the position, i said id forgive before.. and i didnt.. i finished it? so i dont know what the hell im talking about LOL

(i know a friend of mine who has seen guys and found them UNattractive but my friend is single at the time.. shes been jelous about the way this bloke has been banging on about his 'amazing gf' so she goes on some disgusting power trip and does evetrything in her power to sleep with the guy.. for some sort of 'HA i made u cheat! even though u said u loved her' i think?

and she always manages it.. even the really strong guy didnt resist.. weird isnt it? anyway i felt really bad for his gf.. she actaully was amazing and loved him so much.. and he didnt even tell her.. she found out.. and guess what she forgave him...easily apparently? my friend thought HA mug but no she is a strong person.. this guy hates my mate now for wrecking his life.. but he is too blame too.. and my mate says 'if it wasnt her it wuda been some other girl given the opportunity' ............URGH makes me feel sick:S EVIL.COM anyway IN THE END this girl even though she forgave him the trust was gone and she felt so paranoid it cud never be the same and now he spends his life in his house smoking weed depressed whilst shes off with the BBD! so i reckon you just gota keep going till you find the exception and keep ur god damn fingers crossed that u got the expection now! lol

SO ALL IN ALL FOLKS.. ALL BECOME GAY. nah I joke :$

( i dont HALF go off on a tangeant this was supposed to be about hair bows :( lmao i dont half think of some deep sheeeeeeeeeee-at i tell ya )

p.s I love & trust my boyfriend. i am talking in general here..LOL just incase u think im some weird feminist:S i waffle rofl

Beautiful..? this post is based purely on looks since this is mainly a beauty blog..

Okay...

.. So recently I've been seeing ads, campaigns and even blogs on here basically about telling yourself your beautiful until you believe it...

.. being a girl I'm not gonna lie here I'm insecure? who isn't though? if you say you aren't I dont believe you :P.. sometimes I get so paranoid I tell myself to stop right there..

.. sometimes I have to stop wearing so many products and make up because when girls cake on make up, the real reason is that they are trying to change their face,

.. so this must mean they dont like the old face very much..

i knew a friend, who at school got a little picked on.. nothing major, she wasnt really noticed.. she looked young and was very small.. anyway she was constantly looking for attention, and if you see her these days she is unrecognisable, she hasnt had surgery and nothing has changed or grown, but she CAKES her face in make up, and dresses like a down town call girl, jodie marsh x100, the reason for this is because in her head the calculation is... 'IM SMALL AND IM NOT NOTICED NO1 LIKES ME, **ADDS MORE MAKE UP** people are starting to like me and im gettin attention **ADDS MORE MAKE UP AND HAIR AND CLOTHES etc etc ** people are giving me attention, they are staring, THESE MAKE UP CLOTHES HAIR HAVE MADE ME get attention, *I CANNOT LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT A,B,C on* .. so she'll never be happy with who she is..

I sometimes say I want a boob job .. but I know I wont ever really get them done? I dont even know why I say it because I dont even really want them done:S ? However its sad to say that I often tell myself I need plastic surgery on certain parts.. and then its like a battle with yourself.. someone tells you 'you dont need a, b or c, there is nothing wrong with u', and secretly you believed this in the first place and u just needed reassuring, but then just as your feeling secure about a,b,c some mothertrucka insults u and points it out again e.g fatty. And before you know it your back at square one, subconsiously going over things to change about your body in your head. Its a never ending battle...


person a)- 'HAHA YOUR FAT'

you ) -''shit.. i must be fat? cus why would he/she say that otherwise''

person b) -'DONT LISTEN TO HIM/HER your not fat, you know your not'

you) -''yeah thats true, im not fat''

**1 month later**

person c)'SHUT IT TUBS'

..and we are back at square 1 (sorry about that stupid little example I hope you understood it. I've never been called fat... but I can reassure you that I have probably been called everything else under the Sun..i know what it feels like to be insulted but i also know NOW how not to care)

the point im trying to make here (whilst going off on a massive rant) is.. Its sounds cliche but be happy with yourself.. because your never going to be anyone else (unless your getting plastic surgery.. but then even though you say your doing it for yourself.. lets face it.. you arent your doing it for the kid who said you had a big nose)..

BASICALLY.. people always dwell and remember the bad things they were called, they remember every single bad thing someone called them/compared them 2 eTc etc.. and they elimate all the times they have had positive things said to them...

someone said something about me today.. and I kept going over all the bad things people have ever said.. and started remembering more and more and I was almost in tears in my lecture.. but then i realised ? ive been called more nice things that outweigh the bad things by hundreds but weirdly again i forget all the compliments.. everytime someone says im pretty or whatever it passes in one ear and out the other, and the bad only sticks..... if i get called something nice every single day I forget it immediately but then once every few months i get insulted to my face or something (and thinking back the insults werent even that bad) but cuz of insecurity you remember the insult only? what people do then is try to change.. this is a bad thing lol.

i personally think lady gaga is pretty, she has a nice mouth and eyes, but i can see people genuinely think she is UGLY(?) to me i personally cannot comprehend it, they actually laugh at her and mock her and compare her to a man? i cant imagine how she must feel, because of all the negativity surrounding her and shes in that body for life.. maybe these people think shes ugly for the way she acts (strange/weird/annoying whatever).. anyway..

people think (for e.g) Megan Fox is the most beautiful women in the world. i dont? i NEVER say this aloud incase people say im jelous.. but its my GENUINE honest opinion is I dont like her face/her voice/her over sugeried jacko nose/her fakeness thats trying to be real and tricking everyone , shes had so much surgery why should she be the best looking woman in celeb world:S surely anyone could look like her with 2 boob jobs, endless nose jobs. an eyebrow lift. botox, lip implants, veneers, bum cheek implants.. yeah im allowed to say how i feel on here okay? lol
however i do think Kate Beckingsale, Marilyn Monroe, Audrey Hepburn, Olsen twins, Hilary Duff, Dani Mingoue, Cheryl Cole,Britney etc etc.... are all beautiful.. and thats MY opinion.. people said Angelina Jolie was the best looking woman in the world.. i think shes nice? in my OPINION i think she is over rated though.. and i know alot of people who think she same.. and its not because we are jelous, its just opinions, im not comparing her to myself?.. I just dont agree.. SO that just goes to show that no matter if you are bloody Angelina Jolie someone will still see your bad points (huge lips) and call you ugly, but what can she do? what can anyone do?

SO as long as you make the best of yourself.. and make THE BEST 'YOU' that you can be inside and out then who gives a feck if your beautiful/stunning/UGLY/stinking/mess/ to Joe Bloggs? unfortunately the cold truth is someone probably does think your ugly? ..

..but people dont believe this and when an insult gets thrown it breaks them and they take ages to rebuild themself mentally into a state of falseness only to be knocked down again

..when i said someone probably thinks your ugly Im not trying to be mean im trying to make u understand that not everyone on the entire planet can agree to a person being good looking.

so what if he/she thinks ur ugly???? ....10 other people think your beautiful... i guarantee u!!!



.. I know this.. and I can accept this.. I no longer try to understand .. I dont want to know... I just want to know about all the people who think im HOT ;) haha joking :P









That was a long one... I wonder if you read it all? Rant over :) in a happy, sleepy mood :)

end note.. beauty really is and will ALWAYS be... IN THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER ;)

Fuzzy..

After finding out at 22.31pm last night I had what was said to 'important' work by done and handed in today.. so I put the other work I was supposed to do on the back burner and stayed up doing most of it till around 3am.. and set my alarm for 6am.. i woke up at half past 5 feeling really sick and dizzy and was literally heaving over the laptop.. so I thought 'FUCK THIS' and went back to bed... woke up went into lectures only to find out THE PERSON WHO TOLD ME IT WAS IMPORTANT GOT IT WRONG AND I DIDNT NEED TO DO IT FOR ANOTHER FEW WEEKS!!
this is ok.. HOWEVER.. tonight now I have to do work that really has to be in tomorrow which I could have done last night GRRR... plus.. I havent seen my boyfriend properly since like last week lol and I was supposed to see him tonight :( but now I can barely function, so hes going to the pub. I hope he has a drink or 2 for me!
Anyway I managed to snail my way home.. only to get stopped by the nail bar .. and I sucummbed (?) lol and had my nails done.. need some pampering see.. even if it is breaking the bank.. Here is a pic.. i went for oval acrylics instead of the square.. a bit more classy and less cheap in my opinion!
( errr sorry about the mess! haha )


I dont really want to turn this into a boring blog about all my little shitty parts in my day but Ive been having a strange week!

x

a sweet end..

yeah sooo since the last blog, yes, the day got progressively worse.. however I'm not going to delve into boring territory lol.. I popped into town on the way home and indulged in to the trusted RETAIL THERAPY yipee :) .. my budget was tight but seemed to get ALOT.. I bought rimmel blusher, glam eyes mascara! gypsy earings that cost £1.50 WHAT A BARGAIN! and I'll post a pic of some other things i bought WHICH I ADORE :)
first is... it makes me a bit excited to look at.. i bought it because i needed a new bag for college.. and I LOVE florals as u know.. it was a shocking 6 pounds:| can u believe it, i think it looks worth at least 25 !! and i bought a matching purse so i can put all my cards in and finally have some sort of structure in my bag :)

next is my trusty every day sweet nail polish.. i love it because as the bottle says it really does last a long time even on my thin nails! i got it for like less than £2 as well as its normally around £8, bargain tuesday :P
and those are some eyelash curlers:P

tell me what you think about the bag..!! i saw another gorgeous one there 2 which i have my eye on... hmmmmmmm

toodles x

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Merrrrrrrr...... I woke up late this morning after feeling pretty low before I went to bed.. I forgot to set my alarm and therefore missed lecture which has probably paved the way for the rest of my day.. sooooo I came on here and did my usual youtube beauty vids..

and it's just occured to me more than ever that its so difficult to access the amazing MAC products that everyone bangs on about because a) I live in Swansea... Swansea does not have a MAC store.. It does not even have a store that sells MAC.. Debehnams does not even sell it. Fair enough I could go to another City, yes,... but Ive resorted to buying the things online, but the problem with that is I cant even try a tester can I?

And on top of that.. I've had the worst luck with my laptops and to be quite frank this isn't safe or reliable! the fan sounds like a jet on the run way ready to take off... and it constantly over heats! LOL anyway I dont really know what I'm trying to achieve here.. Ive just had a BLARRRRRRRRR 2 weeks and decided to have a a big fat rant!!!! LOL

LOL On the plus side... I'm easily affording my hair .. since going back brunette I've been trying out loads of hair dyes.. thanks to.. the loreal casting gloss.. its only a 28 wash but the colours are really intense and they do exactly what they say on the box! glossy!!!!!! and you get to change your hair colour like whenever you want for as little damage as theres no harsh stuff like bleach and ammonia in them!! and at liike £5 pounds you cant really go wrong


this is the one I used when going from a blondish colour to a light brown and it worked a treat!

The one Im using at the moment is the chocolate one with penelope cruise on the advert.. APPARENTLY :P!! its pretty nice...... but I'm getting tired of the golden undertones under the light (which is nice dont get me wrong so im thinking of going a standard medium/dark brown... maybe even a dark chocolate but that would probably have the same undertones:P
Do any of you use this product???? tell me about it?!?!?
Id love to hear!!

PRODUCTS..Products..products :):) CHEAP AS CHIPS 2!

When I find a product that I love.. i enjoy banging on about it for ages.. and i want to tell everyone.. because well... i have really strange sensitive skin and where my T zone is.. is the driest part of my face :S

but anyway thats nothing to do with this really..
I'm not really into little pots of lipbalm and stuff, im into lipsticks and glosses..
however I borrowed my boyfriends mothers little tin of aloe vera vaseline..

..i love vaseline.. but hate all the flavoured ones.. but this one DOES NOT smell like aloe vera.. i only just recently found out it was aloe vera (when i red the tin lol) it actually smells of apple.. but its not too over powering













as you can see.. its from superdrug and its about a pound or something :P and i would never have personally chosen it myself, however its a brilliant lip balm.. but even better......... since im now a student i've been a bit naughty and pulling the old night before the deadline all nighter trick.. and this has stopped me from looking dead the next morning..

..it sounds mad and i know your not supposed to put this anywhere near your eyes.. and considering i have sensitive skin its still fine.. i put a tiny dab near the corner of my eye the tear duct side and it make ur eyes all awake and tingly and u get that same bright feeling as if
you had eye brightner drops without the pain! lol

iv also been using it on my wrists for a subtle little pick me up scent!!


Another product I recently came across.. again by accident, i picked the wrong one up.. i was in a rush looking for a conditioner.. since i've dyed my hair ALOT...... called AUSSIE was about a fiver maybe just under.. obviously ive heard of them before but it doesnt really look likes some product you really want and it says it smells of safflower seed oil (?????) which doesnt sound a) familiar b) too appealing..

BUT OMG... i cant describe the smell exactly.. its sweet.. but not sickly.. not like strawberry or cherry or anything.. its like a sorbet or sherbet kind of smell but 1000 times nicer.. and its a really thick conditioner that made my hair look just heavy, shiny and alot of it (but in a good way)..

people in lectures were asking me what perfume and stuff i had on and i couldnt stop smelling my hair for days.. and trust me ive had a lot of smelly perfumes ..
























2 more tiny little products..... first the tea tree cleansing wipes.. they dont smell of tea tree oil (yuck) as they have peppermint oils in them which is said to prevent spots?! and they make your face feeel really clean......... they cost me something ridiculous from Wilkos.. 2 for 49p

and then the tea tree and peppermint blackhead cleanser which i use mainly on my nose and chin and i havent had spots there for agess ... this costs like 79p a bottle to ?!?! and dont get me wrong i love a bargain but never for my skin... AGAIN i used these because i run out over my aunties before and she has super sensitive skin and they didnt affect me so i stocked up and havent looked back since.. i used to spend like probably over £30 on my cleansing toning moisterising routine before, when i add all the things together now!!

LOL THIS SOUNDS LIKE IM A SPOKESPERSON OR SOMETHING anyway heres a pic.. surely some of you MUST have tried these products.. LET ME KNOW :) grately appreciated :) ta x

Florals are back..

Mmm yeah so florals were in last season with the fitted bright slightly bold t-shirt/dresses.. and so on.. I wasnt MAD on them but I own a cute one .. which I cant seem to find at present.. my room is like a a small Storage room at the moment..

so anyway my boyfriends family bought me some topshop vouchers and I havent really seen much in there lately apart from those cut off /crop top/ midriff showing vest type things .. so after my lecture I went into town for a mooch and saw there is a new spring floral collection out.. and picked this delightful sun dress, i think its very classic but also you either hate it or love it (my brother said it looked like a curtain/duvet cover :( lol )

p.s .. tell me what you think......(yarrrrr i know its raining and snowing out but ya know )

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Where can I wear this?? any Feedback ? :) xx