.. So recently I've been seeing ads, campaigns and even blogs on here basically about telling yourself your beautiful until you believe it...
.. being a girl I'm not gonna lie here I'm insecure? who isn't though? if you say you aren't I dont believe you :P.. sometimes I get so paranoid I tell myself to stop right there..
.. sometimes I have to stop wearing so many products and make up because when girls cake on make up, the real reason is that they are trying to change their face,
.. so this must mean they dont like the old face very much..
i knew a friend, who at school got a little picked on.. nothing major, she wasnt really noticed.. she looked young and was very small.. anyway she was constantly looking for attention, and if you see her these days she is unrecognisable, she hasnt had surgery and nothing has changed or grown, but she CAKES her face in make up, and dresses like a down town call girl, jodie marsh x100, the reason for this is because in her head the calculation is... 'IM SMALL AND IM NOT NOTICED NO1 LIKES ME, **ADDS MORE MAKE UP** people are starting to like me and im gettin attention **ADDS MORE MAKE UP AND HAIR AND CLOTHES etc etc ** people are giving me attention, they are staring, THESE MAKE UP CLOTHES HAIR HAVE MADE ME get attention, *I CANNOT LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT A,B,C on* .. so she'll never be happy with who she is..
I sometimes say I want a boob job .. but I know I wont ever really get them done? I dont even know why I say it because I dont even really want them done:S ? However its sad to say that I often tell myself I need plastic surgery on certain parts.. and then its like a battle with yourself.. someone tells you 'you dont need a, b or c, there is nothing wrong with u', and secretly you believed this in the first place and u just needed reassuring, but then just as your feeling secure about a,b,c some mothertrucka insults u and points it out again e.g fatty. And before you know it your back at square one, subconsiously going over things to change about your body in your head. Its a never ending battle...
person a)- 'HAHA YOUR FAT'
you ) -''shit.. i must be fat? cus why would he/she say that otherwise''
person b) -'DONT LISTEN TO HIM/HER your not fat, you know your not'
you) -''yeah thats true, im not fat''
**1 month later**
person c)'SHUT IT TUBS'
..and we are back at square 1 (sorry about that stupid little example I hope you understood it. I've never been called fat... but I can reassure you that I have probably been called everything else under the Sun..i know what it feels like to be insulted but i also know NOW how not to care)
the point im trying to make here (whilst going off on a massive rant) is.. Its sounds cliche but be happy with yourself.. because your never going to be anyone else (unless your getting plastic surgery.. but then even though you say your doing it for yourself.. lets face it.. you arent your doing it for the kid who said you had a big nose)..
BASICALLY.. people always dwell and remember the bad things they were called, they remember every single bad thing someone called them/compared them 2 eTc etc.. and they elimate all the times they have had positive things said to them...
someone said something about me today.. and I kept going over all the bad things people have ever said.. and started remembering more and more and I was almost in tears in my lecture.. but then i realised ? ive been called more nice things that outweigh the bad things by hundreds but weirdly again i forget all the compliments.. everytime someone says im pretty or whatever it passes in one ear and out the other, and the bad only sticks..... if i get called something nice every single day I forget it immediately but then once every few months i get insulted to my face or something (and thinking back the insults werent even that bad) but cuz of insecurity you remember the insult only? what people do then is try to change.. this is a bad thing lol.
i personally think lady gaga is pretty, she has a nice mouth and eyes, but i can see people genuinely think she is UGLY(?) to me i personally cannot comprehend it, they actually laugh at her and mock her and compare her to a man? i cant imagine how she must feel, because of all the negativity surrounding her and shes in that body for life.. maybe these people think shes ugly for the way she acts (strange/weird/annoying whatever).. anyway..
people think (for e.g) Megan Fox is the most beautiful women in the world. i dont? i NEVER say this aloud incase people say im jelous.. but its my GENUINE honest opinion is I dont like her face/her voice/her over sugeried jacko nose/her fakeness thats trying to be real and tricking everyone , shes had so much surgery why should she be the best looking woman in celeb world:S surely anyone could look like her with 2 boob jobs, endless nose jobs. an eyebrow lift. botox, lip implants, veneers, bum cheek implants.. yeah im allowed to say how i feel on here okay? lol
however i do think Kate Beckingsale, Marilyn Monroe, Audrey Hepburn, Olsen twins, Hilary Duff, Dani Mingoue, Cheryl Cole,Britney etc etc.... are all beautiful.. and thats MY opinion.. people said Angelina Jolie was the best looking woman in the world.. i think shes nice? in my OPINION i think she is over rated though.. and i know alot of people who think she same.. and its not because we are jelous, its just opinions, im not comparing her to myself?.. I just dont agree.. SO that just goes to show that no matter if you are bloody Angelina Jolie someone will still see your bad points (huge lips) and call you ugly, but what can she do? what can anyone do?
SO as long as you make the best of yourself.. and make THE BEST 'YOU' that you can be inside and out then who gives a feck if your beautiful/stunning/UGLY/stinking/mess/ to Joe Bloggs? unfortunately the cold truth is someone probably does think your ugly? ..
..but people dont believe this and when an insult gets thrown it breaks them and they take ages to rebuild themself mentally into a state of falseness only to be knocked down again
..when i said someone probably thinks your ugly Im not trying to be mean im trying to make u understand that not everyone on the entire planet can agree to a person being good looking.
so what if he/she thinks ur ugly???? ....10 other people think your beautiful... i guarantee u!!!
.. I know this.. and I can accept this.. I no longer try to understand .. I dont want to know... I just want to know about all the people who think im HOT ;) haha joking :P
That was a long one... I wonder if you read it all? Rant over :) in a happy, sleepy mood :)
end note.. beauty really is and will ALWAYS be... IN THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER ;)
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